November 29, 2012

The New Farm

I feel like we are really starting from scratch.



I should have been documenting this whole thing -- the big leap our family has taken since I last wrote -- but it's almost as if it were too precious, to fragile to really put into words out there in the world. Not just yet anyway.

See, since my last post, we bought a farm. A real, honest-to-goodness farm -- of our own.

We've been working toward this for the last four -- eight, really -- years.

"If only," we'd say, "we had a place of our own."

"Someday, when we actually have a farm..."

"If we ever own our own farm we'll..."

And now we're actually here, on our own farm. 

We did first things first. We moved our stuff, turkeys and equipment.

Then, we broke ground.


Then we butchered said turkeys and delivered them across the state for Thanksgiving. (We have so many thanks to give for all the help we got with that.)

And now, that the dust has settled, it's started to sink in that this magical place is ours. Ours.



Then the panic really set in.

When you finally get something you really, really, really want, it can be a bit paralyzing.

Because now, we don't have any somedays. We have todays.

All the things we thought we could make happen if -- they don't have ifs anymore. They have whens. Now the real work starts.

And all that stuff I thought about our someday? Some of it was true and some of it wasn't, reaffirming that darnit -- life, motherhood, farming, love -- it all takes work, no matter how magical the place or how nicely situated the outbuildings or how well-organized the kitchen.

Everything is a bit easier, yes, and we're doing it all in a breathtaking place, but it all still takes hard, heart-ful, back-aching work.

One thing hasn't changed, though: It's still so very worth it.



4 comments:

  1. Congratulations, Courtney! You guys have been doing some amazing things. All that hard work is definitely worth it. At the end of the day there is that deep sense of satisfaction and there is that visual/physical confirmation right there in front of you - affirming that everything you are all doing is paying off. And the legacy you are creating and carrying forward!! Wonderful!

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  2. Congratulations to you!!
    My husband and I bought our first house this summer. We have wanted a nice garden, chickens, generally to be fairly self sustaining. You have put into words much of what I have felt this summer/fall. We have said many times "we can ___ once we are not renting anymore"

    I have been following this blog for about 2 years now. I think one of the first posts I read is "Why I Married a Farmer" (my birthday is Sep. 20 :) it's a good day!)
    I quickly felt a connection to your writing because you put words to things I have felt, even if I was only going through it in my head as my husband and I dreamed of "someday."
    Thank you for writing this blog and being honest.

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  3. Hi,

    I have a quick question about your blog, do you think you could e-mail me?

    Brian

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